Staying strong 

I’ve been through a lot in my life, and I always have people ask me, “how did you beat depression,” “How are you so strong,” and, “wow I feel sorry for you.”  To answer these questions I have to tell you guys a quote: “God only gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.” 

This quote has brought me to where I am today. No, I have not “beat” depression, I battle with it every single day; however, I am not going to give my abusers what they want, they want me to be depressed, feel guilty, feel useless, but I WILL NOT GIVE INTO THEM ANY LONGER. Everyone that’s hurt me in my past always seems to get a small triumph when I’m depressed, and I don’t want that, I don’t want them to have that leverage on me. 

Second, when people ask me how I’m so strong all I think is, “God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.” I am strong because of my lord and savior, Jesus Christ. I am strong because he is always here for me, I am strong because I refuse to be weak. I spent numerous years of my life being weak, and I won’t be weak for one more second. 

Third, when people tell me they are sorry for me, it upsets me. I don’t want others to look at me with pity, I don’t want people to baby me because of my past. My past has made me who I am today, and for that I’m more than grateful! If it wasn’t for what happened to me, I wouldn’t be as wise as I am today. I wouldn’t be where I am today I I hadn’t had the past I did. 

In conclusion, I have not “beat” depression, I am strong because that’s the only thing I will be, and I don’t want your pity.  Saying this, I want others to know that I’m proud of what I’ve overcome, I’m proud of my scars, I’m proud because I’m stronger than my past self! 

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