Category Archives: Inspiration

Good Times With My Abusers 

When people ask me about how my daily life was when I was living with my biological mother and stepfather they are surprised when I don’t say that everyday was a living hell. I also had very good times in their home, from getting new dogs, you on vacation, and just spending time together. 

I had very good times in their home, along with the abuse. It’s an odd mixture I know, but everyday wasn’t horrible, everyday wasn’t hell, everyday I wasn’t abused. 

The abuse same in spirts, I would be beat, assaulted, screamed at, for a while, then it’d stop for a month or so, then the abuse from my stepfather would start again. 

On the other hand, my biological mother was constantly abusive, but only verbally and mentally. I would be told that my biological father hated me, was replacing me, and didn’t love me. She would tell me how horrible of a daughter I was, she would ask me why I wasn’t like my sisters. 

I’ve thought about this question for a while. “Why can’t you be like you sisters?”  After many years, I finally have an answer, I’m not like Ashley are Erica because I refuse to be walked over, I refuse to be taken advantage of, I refuse to be abused, I refuse to be weak. I’ve watched what my biological mothers a bust has done to my sisters, I’ve watched the negative effects it’s had on them, and I do not want that for me or my children in the future. I will not have them know the abusers I know. They will not like that life. 

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Confidence 

Confidence is something everyone is capable of showing. Weather you are an 8 year old or an 80 year old, you have the choice to be confident. 

Confidence does not come from getting compliments. Confidence comes from loving yourself, being yourself, and being comfortable with who you are. 

Who cares if someone says you look ugly, says you need to change, question your style? Their opinions don’t matter. Their comments only mean have as much leverage as you give them. Bullies thrive off of getting a reaction, out of hurting you, but you have the choice to allow them to do that. You have the power over yourself. The question simply is, “Is this person important enough? Does this person truly know me?” The answer is most of the time no. They are not important enough, they don’t know you well. 

Every person on this earth was created for a reason. Every single person has a purpose. Find that purpose, work toward it, don’t give up. After all, you’ve already made it this far, you might as well keep going.  

In conclusion, love yourself, pamper yourself, do what every you have to do to better yourself. You ARE loved. You ARW worth it. You WILL keep going. Don’t give people the credit they don’t deserve.